Revelations..

Have you ever learned things that have a profound impact on your life?  That happened to me this past weekend as I learned some things about people I have known for a considerable amount of time.  Life altering information... not for them but for me.  The fact that this has been hidden from me for so long was irrelevant... what was profound is that this information has helped me to make some important decisions about me and my life.

I have been dating since August 16 and I have had an immense amount of fun.  I was thinking I was done and I should reduce the amount of "hoeness" (my own new word) that was happening life and maybe seek to find someone for a LTR.  Nope! I learned this weekend that I am not ready for that.

If I happen to find someone and they are on the same page as I am in terms of my lifestyle - great!  If not - a LTR will have to wait a bit longer as I seek to explore and have some fun.

I have decided to try some things out and test my limits.  I want to keep exploring and have some good old fashioned BDSM fun.  I have created an adult bucket list if you will and I am seeking to fulfill it.   Not that it was ever taboo, but somehow this revelation I learned from my friends has created a second awakening of sorts and I am super excited about it.

I urge you to remember that life is short. Do not wait to fulfill your buckets lists or fantasies.  The time for you is here and now!

Here is to the unknown future. I am large and in charge.

Scarlet...   

Lemonade out of Lemons... (Sugarfree!)

Last night I made Lemonade out of Lemons...   Sugarfree at that*!  I had a first date scheduled and apparently I was stood up.  The good part of it was that I had not even left my house yet... the bad part is that he owned a boat and I was really hoping to get to know him and get a few dates out of it!  I blocked him so that is not happening.

I had been face timing with him and chatting/texting with him a few times over the past few days.  All was good... or so I thought.  We spoke around 5 and he was starting to work on something for his boat...  I had told him I could meet him around 7:30 halfway between us.  At 7 he was still working on his boat... so I told him no worries. He told me he would text me when he was done.  Fast forward to 8 pm ish and I had not heard from him.  I texted asking if he was done/are we still meeting. He read this around 8:15 and started to reply as I could see the ... and then they disappeared!  Nice job Casper... No wonder you said you can't find anyone... So I wrote back and said I guess I am being stood up which is a shame as I had chosen him over two other offers!  (One I switched to a different day/time and the other offer came a few hours before I was stood up). 

Mind you - I was lying on the sofa, make-up all done, chilling out watching Flea Bag and thoroughly enjoying relaxing but still... I was ditched.  I was ditched and horny!  Yup, I said it.  Flea Bag is such an amazing show but it was getting hot and steamy and I was in need.  

Time to make Lemons... I texted my newer FWB/FF... and he happened on a rare Fri night not to be busy.  (He has a hobby that usually keeps him busy on most Friday nights).  I was totally willing to make the drive but he was amazing and drove to me.  I sprang into action to get the bedroom ready (I usually do not make my bed) and get into something way more comfortable.  30 minutes later the main ingredient needed to make lemonade appeared.    We did not waste time making a ton of Lemonade.... sugar free*.  (I found out he had been sitting watching TV wondering what I was doing)

*So why Sugar Free?  Simple... Sugar is something you get addicted to... he is not available for me to get addicted to right now.  He is not ready for a committed relationship.  We actually had that talk and if at some point he is, I do like him and would like to explore it if I am available to do so at the time.  If not...  I am taking him for what he is worth...  a seriously amazing FWB/FF that I am so comfortable with talking to or making Lemonade with.  

Three hours later... all of the lemons had been squeezed.

*****

In other news......

...  The guy I was supposed to have a date with on Wed night cancelled on me again - strike 2.  First time he had to work and do a last minute proposal.  We spoke on the phone on his breaks - all good.  This past Wednesday he had a "family emergency".  I heard from him Thursday saying he still wanted to see / meet me. I replied "ok" (but not really ok) and I have yet to hear from him. Sad about this one as he was pretty handsome and we really had a lot of laughs on the phone.  NEXT!

...  SQUIRREL!   On my phone when I click on the blog link...  it shows as wtfddchro...gspot.com which is hillarious!  G spots are SO very important.

...  I had a coffee date with someone that found me on facebook (not the dating portion) which by the way blows...and not in the good way.  FB dating section needs WAY more info so we can be more selective and not have to ask a million questions of someone.  Back to the coffee..  He was nice and a gentleman...
(You know there is a BUTTTTT in here... he is so loud/abrasive/New Yorker). 
We will see as I have agreed to spend a little more time getting to know him, BUTTTTT I feel I will be trying to change him and shush him.  So if I do need to say goodbye to him (which I can see coming) I will let him know that I am not looking to change someone and I want him to quiet down more than he is capable of. LOL!  We shall see- I am giving him another date on Sunday afternoon.

... I have a date this afternoon with someone on the surface I really like. He is not my type (if I have one) but from our conversations.. I am intrigued.  We are meeting at a location TBD and apparently playing a tile game! So very funny!  Lets see how this goes.

... I have another date Sunday am for breakfast with someone I do not know all that well.  Should be interesting.

...I have been in conversation with someone that I am a bit wary of as he is from England.  He is here for work and goes back soon and is supposedly moving here with his two boys.  He is sweet but I am pretty distrusting of those with an accent from England/Europe/Denmark, etc.. based on the scammer from Denmark. (No worries... I am too smart for that).

Lots of action and several that have gone by the wayside.  I would love to find someone to be in a LTR with at some pt, esp with holidays approaching; however, I am just going to lessen my need to make lemonade with so many, enjoy my dates and maybe start to be a little more selective at some pt soon.  We will see.  

For now I am large and in charge with eyes wide open!

P.S.  I think I am in the mood for a tall glass of water with a side of Lemon!

Will power is overrated

This has been a most interesting week and a half.   The ghoster tried once again to get me to change my mind...  he did not succeed.  This was probably the only will power that was exerted this week in any capacity that resembles success.   

I did manage to meet someone at a park.  This was to make sure that I indeed exerted a modicum of control.  We mostly talked with a few sessions of sucking face.  Let me refrain that...  I was trying to kiss and he was pretty much not allowing me to breathe! LOL  That aside... I had to leave to get back to work after 2 1/2 hours!  I agreed to give him a massage late the next night but insisted that I had to behave.  He told me he would make sure of it.  I could trust him since I did not trust myself.  *sigh*  I held out until 1 am and after discussion of life being too short happened (this always gets me).  I clearly had no right to trust myself and apparently not him!  The kissing needs to be worked on but I can totally say that he is not a selfish person.  We had some intense sessions looking into one another's eyes.  We were supposed to have a date during the weekend but he ended up getting sick, which cleared the way for some serious fun.

I will skip the details of my Friday night date; however, I will say that being a chivalrous gentleman is amazing, except when it borders on oppressive and when you are selfish in bed. I love that a man wants to hold the door open for me, pull out my chair, open my car door, etc... but for the love of humanity, please allow me to open the car door and get out if I want to.  I am not one to sit and wait for the man to come around to open my car door when I am perfectly capable of opening the car and standing up.  As far as being selfish in bed...   things cannot always be equal but that is for a long term situation.  If you ever want to see the side of a second date, be kind and remember that being chivalrous also means allowing the woman to have her own pleasures that do not have anything to do with you.

I also will skip any details of Sat except to say that the person I was with has become a FWB for right now.  He had crazy mads skills at popping up multiple times during the night as well as crazy mad oral skills.  Many hours later....most comfortable fun I have had in a long time.  Not only that, but my knees and back allowed me to do positions that I love.  I am not really into vanilla man  on top sex and hope that anyone reading this is not either.  Some of the other positions are just way more intense.  

Today I had to visit his work as he is doing a sort of job for me and may I just say that I was not prepared for how the visit ended on a blanket in the back room of the office.  Totally not expected.  Totally hot.  Cue smile on my face all day!

I would say that this has been a successful weekend of adulting.  A lot of fun was had.  Resting took place.  No one was hurt. 

If it does not bring you income, inspiration or orgasms, it doesn't belong in your life!

I am Large and In Charge...

Vagina Voodoo

A friend came up with the idea for the title of this blog post... based on the events of the past week. 

Single life, AKA "Freedom" suits me for now just fine.  That is not to say that sooner than later I might want a relationship to develop... but for the moment I am living in the moment... and identifying with "Jane the slut" from Rocky Horror!

It has been quite the over abundance of activity this week on the dating/fun/sex front.  The general consensus has been if we are not hurting anyone, sex and all that goes with it just feels good.  It is nice to be taken out for drinks and an appetizer, listen to music....  while stirring up chemistry and have all the control.  

I go from Mom to MILF to Mom mode in the course of three days, so my weekends have to count for something!

I do not think that I am going to use this post to elaborate with nicknames or details as I plan to / pretty sure I will see them all again.  What I can tell you is that women are pretty powerful beings.  My vagina apparently has magic voodoo and it must manifest itself via my eyes and body language.  Powerful stuff I tell you.

Also this week I am feeling very empowered for a few reasons... 

1) I chose my boudoir photo that will be used for someone else's blog on empowering women. It took me 30 min to make my final choice and to be 100% with no regrets on the one I chose. It is an amazing photo that leaves just enough to the imagination and has the power to collapse a man to his knees...

2) I also eliminated about 6-7 from chatting with me.  I chose the ones I felt were worth carrying on a conversation / potential meeting with.  The others for various reasons I simply told that it was not going to work out or I needed to pair down the conversations I was having for lack of time.

3) I told someone that we were not a good match (after he asked me for my weight) and realized next time I will ask him his penis size.  Although I bet he will be happy to share!  I also shared a full length dressed pic with someone as I had shared that I was full-figured, etc...  and after 5 minutes of radio silence I swiped left and deleted him.  It is ok if someone chooses to be superficial  - that is their American right!  

4) The men I have seen this week are ok with the flaws of my body / extra weight as they know I am working on it.   I am working on being ok with me too - soooo difficult and challenging to hear someone loves your ass! It is also interesting to learn that a man that is super hot also sees himself as flawed and has insecurities about part of his bod!  Eye opening.

My words of wisdom this week to all of the men have been to not say they are sorry for anything. In conversation something will come up...say talking a lot/sharing...and they might say "sorry" for talking too much. Why say sorry? Are you really sorry? If you did not want to talk then stop. Or talk and take ownership.  Own it.  Be glad I am an amazing listener (NOT your therapist!).  Own your actions and feelings.  

I have grown a lot in the last few months and am better for it. So to that original guy that ghosted me - I say thank you.  Your interest in me as a FWB and subsequent dick move ghosting was such an amazing gift.

Signing off and shutting down the Vagina Voodoo for the next few weeks (minus one day) as I am on mom mode. Plus my body and mind needs to reset itself.

I am Large and In Charge and your modern day full-figured Carrie Bradshaw...

The Field...

Whoever "they" is ..call it "Playing the Field" and I guess I can certainly say that  have rounded the bases many times.  No regrets. Full ownership for what I am doing and what I am after.  

I am a woman that spent the last decade unsatisfied sexually and I am "playing catch (up)" to make up for lost time.

Speaking of catching up...  here at blog central, there needs to be some updates.

Someone I was chatting with on the phone (who btw was super religious and attended church daily*) tried to sextort me.  Our conversations got pretty hot and heavy and there was a lot of sexting. (*He must need to ask for forgiveness daily) He tried to force me to give him nude pics of my butt, breasts or leg in 5 minutes or he was withholding seeing me as he was not convinced  was "all in".  WTF  You can take your religion and shove it where the sun does not shine sir...  Seriously - You have no power over me.. I had not met you and I was not invested.  Thank goodness I did not meet him!

*Southern Gentleman is no more. He broke his cardinal rule and the last time he was here (middle of a day), he took pleasure before me, leaving me unsatisfied.  I knew that was the last time I would see him.  He did not text his good mornings and sure enough today there was "the text" saying that he is "taking a break" and he is getting his life re-focused and he has a "lot going on" blah blah...   It may have been that he saw part of my largeness that he did not like in the daylight - who knows.  Whatever the case... he has ridden off on his horse into the darkness and I am A-Ok with it!

After a 7 week determined conquest... I was able to get someone to commit to giving me the hug and kiss that I had been promised.  It led to a LOT More and we needed to be hosed off.  What was truly unfortunate was the intentional bruises that were left behind as a result of the hot passion.  I like it a little rough, but not to where it hurts to touch my now black and blue nipples!!!

Someone earlier this week made a quick coffee date with me and then a day later called it off as he was getting more serious with a woman he was dating (they decided all of the sudden)... Not sure I actually believe him.  Super unfortunate as I was hoping to connect with him and his music - he seemed like a good one.  Someone else I chatted with this past week and made a date with for Sunday also messaged me today and told me that he was getting back together with his ex as of this am.  Two in one day!  He I was not as excited about so this was also fine.   Plus- no sooner did this happen than I replaced him with a different date!

I have 4 dates lined up for this weekend.. 2 are more about a physical FWB type thing, one I have no idea and the other seems somewhat normal and subdued.  

I have to say that I am having fun and this is all I want.  For now.. I do miss having someone to go places with me and have fun.  For now I will continue to safely play the field and accumulate those numbers for my numbers game and enjoy the physical connections, first time kisses, passion, dirty talk and ...  but I know there will be a time when I would love to find someone to date more consistently or have a LTR with.  

For now though - I have more bases to run and tackling to do.  Signing off until after the weekend of fun..I am large and in charge! 

Jeopardy

(Mom you had better sit down for this one!)

Alex, I will take "WTF" for 69 please...
A: "Ok, the answer is sit on my face"
Q: "What is something you want to do to me?"

OMG so two different men I have been talking / texting with (out of 4 I think this week) told me during a hot & heavy conversation (one was text and the other was via phone) that they could not wait to have me sit on their face.

I am not kidding! Would I lie about something I did in my early 20's?  LOL, yes, ok, I did a lot of fun stuff in my 20's.  Apparently it is a thing and men love to have women sit on their face so they can lick them and eat them out and make them "squirt"... yup - that is also a thing.  I was asked if I "squirt".    How the hell do I know if I "squirt".  I have never held up a mirror to myself while I was having an orgasm or cumming.

Ok.. I must admit that it does not sound all that bad, but how am I going to manage to sit my older big booty on their face exactly?   I am sure they would figure it out!

I have been asked to send boob pics, nude pics and pics in lingerie/bra/undies as well (all of which is a no an against my self protection internet/technology policy so that my image and/or body parts do not end up on some crazy sick sites out there).    

I have been told in explicit detail what they want to do to me and asked if I would masturbate with them on the phone/sext with them.  I have been asked if I had an orgasm yet for the day and do I have daily orgasms.  Mind you... I have yet to meet any of the "fab" four yet!

It is a crazy sex filled WTF world out there for sure. There is no lack of men that are looking to have fun.

I think if there was a sexual Jeopardy.. I might just have a shot at winning!

What's the craziest thing you have been asked?

Signing off... I am Large and In Charge!

Truly a Numbers Game AKA and then there were three...

Dating is TRULY a number game for both sexes.  The more you chat with / meet... the better your chances are to get lucky, have fun, date, go out or find "the one" for a LTR - whatever you are after.

One night this week, I met Latin Lover for coffee.  We already knew we had a lot in common and were hitting it off, so coffee was a bonus.  We talked there for 2 hours and then at closing moved to the car. We stood outside against the car kissing and talking for 45 minutes.  I kid you not!  He was HOT HOT HOT.  Latin Lover is 11 years my junior.  When I was dishing this fun night to mi madre...  I left out the details that came next...   I took him home!  Yup it was seriously just hot between us and there was absolutely no waiting.  He did not pressure me in any way but the feeling was mutual between us. Pure adult fun with a bonus shower.  (UPDATE...today he told me that he reconnected with someone from 3 years ago...  so he was pretty much a hit it and quit it.  But AT LEAST he told me and told me I was pretty and great and what happened was unexpected, blah blah.  I am not sorry I did it - he was super hot. I am a little sad as I wanted more of him! But there will be more and maybe better yet!)

What is super interesting here is that I am not small.  I have fat pretty much everywhere yet it just did not matter.  I am learning to be comfortable in my skin and with my fat as I navigate towards losing weight... because hell, this girl just wants to have fun! (Singing Cyndi Lauper as I type this)

So fast forward to not so fun Friday...  I was stood up in the morning by a seriously HOT Nurse as he "overslept" as he "worked late"... No second chances. He did not even call! He texted his apology and that he overslept and that I was important... blah blah.  I made the time in my work day, I set alarms and I got maybe 4.5 hours of sleep.... I was there to meet him ON TIME!  I hope I never need to have surgery in his OR...

Later Fri night I had a date with Southern Gentleman... I asked him out so I paid for dinner.  It was nice although the few times I tried to be intimate publicly he did not seem into it. So I refrained. People are silly that way... I was just trying to hold his hand... When we left he did not look so good and once we got home he looked worse. He ended up leaving as he was in pain and did not feel good inside.  I did hear from him today and he still wants to see me and make it up to me - so that is good.  But alas I did not have a lucky Friday at all!  I did finally get some much needed sleep.  Always a positive.

Today I was to meet one more for coffee but did not. After being stood up, I texted to confirm... he read it and never replied back. Nope. Not doing THAT again. NEXT...  Sorry mi madre... no "nice Jewish boy" on this go around.  he is not so nice after all.

I am chatting with a new person. He seems pretty funny. For now I will call him Cook.  He does something in the tech field and is also a cook.  We shall see....

Men, men and more men - its all in the numbers. I do not feel I am doing too bad considering it has been only a month that I have been navigating the minefield called men.  

Tonight its all about my friend and celebrating her. Until my next adventure...
Large and In Charge!

So many men... It's a numbers game... Update to Mrs Robinson

Lets start with an update...   Mrs Robinson did NOT happen. I met Pizza Boy and lets just say NO!  He was super shy and freakishly awkward...not at all like the persona from his texting.  I feel bad for him and maybe he needs a Mrs. Robinson to teach him and guide him, but that is not me.  I considered it but ultimately decided I did not want to be his "guardian angel of sex"!  Just the nature of a "younger" man and the conversations I have had with my friends... well he would not need a blue pill... he would outlast your stamina,  he might "cum" before you even touch him but at least he would be able to get hard again and keep going..  Yeah - these conversations happened!  

In addition to Pizza Boy not happening..  the 36 year old I was talking to (or was he 38... I lost track!) wanted to see me/meet me/pleasure me but I said no. I had come back after a late night with friends and he tried so "hard" bless his heart. I told him I could meet him the next day... but alas no...  So long Casper....  There have been a few others I was chatting with as well and they just simply disappear - all in time for them to be a ghost for Halloween.  I am totally ok with all of these...  it was time for them to disappear ....

It truly is a numbers game!  How many can you talk to on so many sites to make sure you meet a few good men!  We know the men do this with the ladies.

Which brings us to the present and my current balancing act.  I have a meeting date tonight ... Friday night a 3rd date with Southern Gentleman... and Sat another coffee date meeting.  There is a 4th one I need to find time to meet as well. Craziness but oh so much fun!  The one I am meeting tonight is the one I seem to have the most in common with.  If anything goes beyond coffee (not tonight of course) I will dub him Latin Lover.  The one for coffee Sat I will call Nice Jewish Man (NJM).  The one I have yet to meet.... well he is already nicknamed in my head as Sexy Scrub Nurse!

I am having fun making up for the past 8+ years.... 

Gotta run and get some work done before my Boudoir Photo shoot. 
I am Large and In Charge Ladies!

Pre-Hurricane Bliss... with a true Gentleman

OK, so I may not be able to experience MBO* and Hurricane Sex; however, pre-storm bliss certainly did happen a few days ago.  We had a second "meeting" and it was awesome!  We were slated to go out but never ended up leaving... The conversation was interesting and then I felt like I was back in high school with our make-out session... except we were not stopped by the mere fact that at any moment his mom would walk in and find us engaged in a full on "french kiss and feeling each other up fest." (Not that this happened say 24 years ago or anything....)  This went far beyond the kissing and feeling fest to three hours of pure bliss.  It was seriously awesome!  He is a most interesting person and was most interested in being a "giver".  I would say the MBO I had were just divine.  And I certainly lived up to the stereotypes out there for ladies like me.  For the 5 hours we were together, I never once gave the storm a thought other than to think that at least I am having this experience despite not having a partner for the storm.   In the here and now, there is this and THIS is bliss.

I know he continues to look on line as do I.  We are both simply dating and enjoying meeting different people without an expectation of a LTR, but I for one cannot wait to be with him again to explore more and from what he said, the feeling is mutual.  I told him I would not blog about him, but he gave me permission so long as I protected his identity.   I will refer to him as Mr. True Southern Gentleman... which holds true for one side of him.. as the other side is raw and real.  Until then....

*MBO = Mind-Blowing Orgasms

Hurricanes are bad for one's dating and sex life...

Dorian is threatening to take aim at Florida and this is going to be devastating.  I might not have too many blog entries for a while... but a thought.... I HATE the name Dorian - name of my Dentist and my Divorce Attorney!  DORIAN you are ruining my fun weekend. I mean I DO have a date tonight but....   The anxiety does not make for a good first date or otherwise.  The crappy part of being single during a Hurricane is no Hurricane Sex!  I cannot get preggo so that would not be a problem. Who would not want to experience blissful mind blowing orgasms while your roof is threatening to blow off?  Id much rather be the one blowing... just saying!

Update to Casanova

Well - 6 days later at midnight, 11:56 PM to be precise, I got a call from Casanova.  It went something like this...  
Me:  Hello
Him: Hi
Me: Who is this
Him: You forgot about me
(Ahhh yes, Casanova I thought)
Me: I deleted you from my phone actually. I had not heard from you since last Wed night...
Him:  Well I have not heard from you
Me:  Seriously?
Him:  I was upset that you requested that of me (he is talking about using Condoms by the way...)
Me:  That is the RESPONSIBLE thing to do... I just met you.  We do not really know each other...
Him: I looked in your eyes (eye roll here) and we had a connection
Me:  Its like meeting someone at a bar - you are a virtual stranger
Him: I did not meet you at a bar and do not feel that way.  Are you still seeing others? Did you meet Fireman and Mr Pompano?
Me: Yes indeed - I am talking to them (and others I thought).  I met them too. I am on there to date and meet people until such time as I meet someone for a LTR
Him: Well, I do not want to compete with them.  Once they are gone and you are not seeing them and you want to come back to me, I will be here. Call me.
Me: Ok great bye

WTF!  Is Casanova serious? WOW - is he full of himself or what! Latin Lover won't be seeing my booty any time soon..... make that EVER!

P.S.  As I already knew 100% - I am clean clean clean. No STD's, No HIV, Can't get preggo. I am good!  Suffice to say I am one lucky individual considering how much fun I had in college!

D Pics...

Why on earth do guys think that women want to see a Dick Pic? (D-pic)

Seriously! There is nothing glamorous circumcised or not about a penis!  I do not really want to see a D-pic, a bulge, a tent or otherwise. I do not want to know that you are "supposedly" 7.5", "thick thick" or "well endowed". 

You are asking me if I like my man well endowed? Well lets see - NO - I want someone that has the smallest penis ever so that he has to use a strap on?  WTF!  You telling me that women want a well endowed man for a tight fit does not help me want to be with you more.

Do you even know HOW to use your magic wand? That is what matters more than size...  Giddeup Cowboy!

How many women have ever sent a V-pic to a man?  Vaginas are not really pretty either in my opinion.  They are erogenous sensitive fountains waiting to be released.  Not even bedazzling a vagina can make it pretty enough for a V-pic to be sent.

Looking for a FWB...

A few days ago I opened up a message on the on line dating site I am on.  Looking fora FWB only.  Sure.. what the heck - let me see what this is all about.  I had a few chats with him after confirming he understood and was "ok" with me being full-figured and wow - people are certainly all out there.

He is all about the boobs - what size - what about your nipples.  He told me his "cock" size (his words) was "7.5 and thick thick circumcised" - Great!  Thanks but I did not ask!  (I can use my peter meter to make sure this is true?)  

I asked him why he was looking for a FWB and he said he was getting over his 3 year relationship with his girlfriend (before that he had been married for many years) and that he did not have time for a relationship.  Interesting.  Not sure I can believe him or anyone really.  He asked for a recent pic to which I sent him a tease picture - one I took that showed a teensy bit of cleavage - beautifully done really - more of a glamour shot my friend did.  He then said he could send me a tease pic to which I quickly replied "NO - I am good. No D pics please!"  (Is there anyone that really likes to look at Dick Pics? Please tell me if so as I cannot even imagine - a side note to this will be a funny story in another blog about a mom I know and D pics).  

The text conversation continued and he kept going about which toys I liked, do I  like his tongue deep in me, favorite place for a man's cum....I cannot even tell you all that was said as it was a lot.  I just kept it up to see how far he would go with the conversation.

He sent me a few pics of him shirtless and may I  just say super buff and handsome. If they were him...

He wanted a full length pic of me too - that is the fun part for me - nope. None. I have none and refused to until I get more weight off.  Being full-figured...hard pass! I did manage to find one where my bottom half melts into the darkness of my black pants...

I have not heard from him since Fri as he was preparing to take his child to college. I know his profile was removed off of the site (either he was on for a month, he changed it, he removed it or was reported- who knows).  I did not expect to hear from him again but the experience and texting was fun. 

I engaged so I could see how far he would go and have great material for my blog. Sext on my friends.. Sext  on!

Casanova

I met Casanova a few days ago...  We met at a coffee shop - he asked me to stand up and turn around so he could look at me (since I have no full length shots of me on line) and he said he liked what he saw and to not lose my butt!  We only had 45 min together...  mind you he did not even offer to buy me a coffee or an iced tea?  So he asked if we could take a walk...  we walked outside and he grabbed my hand for the step down - which was nice and a gentleman.  We walked down thru the various strip plazas (The entire time I am praying there is no one I know near by).  He then grabbed me against a wall and passionately kissed me.  He did not even ask....  which I have mixed feeling about.  It was super hot but at the same time totally not a gentleman.  This happened two more times btw...  I was flustered and mind blown.  He said i was red as a tomato... He was intent on us meeting up to have a meeting of the bodies...  the NEXT day were were talking and then I had texted him about having protection...  to which stopped him in his hot tracks.  He was taken back.  He said he was just going to trust that I was safe and he figured vice versa as he has been tested and often is due to what I will call a charitable/empathetic medical situation (to protect privacy I will not go into those details).  Hello Mr Casanova - did you get blood and swabbed? When was the last time? How many have you really courted like this?  You say none so far but....     Look - I hate condoms in the worst way - I really do. They are just awful - and honestly the fact that I am safe and clean after all I did in college  - really is a miracle in and of itself... but this is 2019!  We have to have some mode"cum" of responsibility? No?  I would love hot sex with a total stranger but at what risk?
I scheduled a test to have a baseline and show I am clean in the meantime. I even told him (I mean again - I would love to have some fun with the boy (again, 11 years my jr)...
He did send back a sly fox emoji... and then radio silence.  I have not heard from him since that emoji.  Sorry for bursting your hot bubble Mr Casanova - I guess you were filled with a lot of Hot Air!
#wtf #dating #casanova #sex #safety #condoms 

A quickie

I have been on line on dating sites for 6 days and I am talking with 6 different men.  Most fascinating. I met one so far and it went really well.  #2 (I will call him Casanova) is intensely into sex - it is THE topic of conversation. He is very sure that he is going to want to do certain things to me that he describes in great detail.   How conversations and dating have changed since way back when the sites first started peaking.  Come to think of it, how I have changed.  It is way different being a woman in her 40′s.  Did I mention that this is a cougar / Mrs Robinson situation… he is 11 years my junior!  LTR material? Probably not.. but oh the fun I can think of!  BTW I need a good sign off line like TITS UP or Madge the Vag’s Twats up Ladies…  Anyone have something good for me to begin or end with? I do like a happy ending….

#quickie #relationships #sex #dating #wtf #cougar #mrsrobinson #casanova

I was GHOSTED!

Lets begin with a WTF on Dating… I was GHOSTED!  A friend of mine introduced me to an acquaintance of hers…  I would say he was on her “D” list…  Someone she considered a friend but she did not really know all that well. I agree except I would say D for DICK move or DOUCHE bag! It started out early in the summer with meeting, him asking the proverbial Alexa how to be set up with me and a lot of texting / sexting.  When we finally met it lasted all of 4 visits / one month of pretty hot sex.  To say after so many years of not having any due to divorce (this is for another post) that I was insatiable was an understatement.  So we were FWB (friends with benefits) but a little more since we texted all the time.. We were both into one another (he told me a lot he was “soooo into me” and how he would love to come home to me and “bang” me) but I knew there was no future - he was  FWB.   That said…  a man should have the BALLS to make a call.   He texts all the time and then sent an email to say “No time, It was fun. Thanks” and then would not return my call when I called and asked him to give me a call.  Ignored a prior text, my call and unfriended me on Facebook….DICK MOVE!  For someone into “open communication” this is about as closed as it gets.  I was super upset   - not about the loss of him - but the loss of the hot sex. LOL - I was not done and I hate not having closure.  Hey Mr Big (my name for him) - THANK YOU for doing me a favor.  You helped to remind me of four fundamental things…  1)  I MISS Sex and kissing and all that goes with it  2) Men can be total D-bags….  I need to take chances but keep my guard up a little longer 3) I found myself again and was back to the me I was 10 years ago and 4) I was ready to put myself back out there on the dating sites (5 days in and the stories will be plentiful). 
P.S.  this post will lead to more about Mr Big…  The “gift” he gave me for my birthday…  a sex injury…  and more.  #dating #wtf  #ghosting #dickmove #sex