Lemonade out of Lemons... (Sugarfree!)

Last night I made Lemonade out of Lemons...   Sugarfree at that*!  I had a first date scheduled and apparently I was stood up.  The good part of it was that I had not even left my house yet... the bad part is that he owned a boat and I was really hoping to get to know him and get a few dates out of it!  I blocked him so that is not happening.

I had been face timing with him and chatting/texting with him a few times over the past few days.  All was good... or so I thought.  We spoke around 5 and he was starting to work on something for his boat...  I had told him I could meet him around 7:30 halfway between us.  At 7 he was still working on his boat... so I told him no worries. He told me he would text me when he was done.  Fast forward to 8 pm ish and I had not heard from him.  I texted asking if he was done/are we still meeting. He read this around 8:15 and started to reply as I could see the ... and then they disappeared!  Nice job Casper... No wonder you said you can't find anyone... So I wrote back and said I guess I am being stood up which is a shame as I had chosen him over two other offers!  (One I switched to a different day/time and the other offer came a few hours before I was stood up). 

Mind you - I was lying on the sofa, make-up all done, chilling out watching Flea Bag and thoroughly enjoying relaxing but still... I was ditched.  I was ditched and horny!  Yup, I said it.  Flea Bag is such an amazing show but it was getting hot and steamy and I was in need.  

Time to make Lemons... I texted my newer FWB/FF... and he happened on a rare Fri night not to be busy.  (He has a hobby that usually keeps him busy on most Friday nights).  I was totally willing to make the drive but he was amazing and drove to me.  I sprang into action to get the bedroom ready (I usually do not make my bed) and get into something way more comfortable.  30 minutes later the main ingredient needed to make lemonade appeared.    We did not waste time making a ton of Lemonade.... sugar free*.  (I found out he had been sitting watching TV wondering what I was doing)

*So why Sugar Free?  Simple... Sugar is something you get addicted to... he is not available for me to get addicted to right now.  He is not ready for a committed relationship.  We actually had that talk and if at some point he is, I do like him and would like to explore it if I am available to do so at the time.  If not...  I am taking him for what he is worth...  a seriously amazing FWB/FF that I am so comfortable with talking to or making Lemonade with.  

Three hours later... all of the lemons had been squeezed.

*****

In other news......

...  The guy I was supposed to have a date with on Wed night cancelled on me again - strike 2.  First time he had to work and do a last minute proposal.  We spoke on the phone on his breaks - all good.  This past Wednesday he had a "family emergency".  I heard from him Thursday saying he still wanted to see / meet me. I replied "ok" (but not really ok) and I have yet to hear from him. Sad about this one as he was pretty handsome and we really had a lot of laughs on the phone.  NEXT!

...  SQUIRREL!   On my phone when I click on the blog link...  it shows as wtfddchro...gspot.com which is hillarious!  G spots are SO very important.

...  I had a coffee date with someone that found me on facebook (not the dating portion) which by the way blows...and not in the good way.  FB dating section needs WAY more info so we can be more selective and not have to ask a million questions of someone.  Back to the coffee..  He was nice and a gentleman...
(You know there is a BUTTTTT in here... he is so loud/abrasive/New Yorker). 
We will see as I have agreed to spend a little more time getting to know him, BUTTTTT I feel I will be trying to change him and shush him.  So if I do need to say goodbye to him (which I can see coming) I will let him know that I am not looking to change someone and I want him to quiet down more than he is capable of. LOL!  We shall see- I am giving him another date on Sunday afternoon.

... I have a date this afternoon with someone on the surface I really like. He is not my type (if I have one) but from our conversations.. I am intrigued.  We are meeting at a location TBD and apparently playing a tile game! So very funny!  Lets see how this goes.

... I have another date Sunday am for breakfast with someone I do not know all that well.  Should be interesting.

...I have been in conversation with someone that I am a bit wary of as he is from England.  He is here for work and goes back soon and is supposedly moving here with his two boys.  He is sweet but I am pretty distrusting of those with an accent from England/Europe/Denmark, etc.. based on the scammer from Denmark. (No worries... I am too smart for that).

Lots of action and several that have gone by the wayside.  I would love to find someone to be in a LTR with at some pt, esp with holidays approaching; however, I am just going to lessen my need to make lemonade with so many, enjoy my dates and maybe start to be a little more selective at some pt soon.  We will see.  

For now I am large and in charge with eyes wide open!

P.S.  I think I am in the mood for a tall glass of water with a side of Lemon!

The Field...

Whoever "they" is ..call it "Playing the Field" and I guess I can certainly say that  have rounded the bases many times.  No regrets. Full ownership for what I am doing and what I am after.  

I am a woman that spent the last decade unsatisfied sexually and I am "playing catch (up)" to make up for lost time.

Speaking of catching up...  here at blog central, there needs to be some updates.

Someone I was chatting with on the phone (who btw was super religious and attended church daily*) tried to sextort me.  Our conversations got pretty hot and heavy and there was a lot of sexting. (*He must need to ask for forgiveness daily) He tried to force me to give him nude pics of my butt, breasts or leg in 5 minutes or he was withholding seeing me as he was not convinced  was "all in".  WTF  You can take your religion and shove it where the sun does not shine sir...  Seriously - You have no power over me.. I had not met you and I was not invested.  Thank goodness I did not meet him!

*Southern Gentleman is no more. He broke his cardinal rule and the last time he was here (middle of a day), he took pleasure before me, leaving me unsatisfied.  I knew that was the last time I would see him.  He did not text his good mornings and sure enough today there was "the text" saying that he is "taking a break" and he is getting his life re-focused and he has a "lot going on" blah blah...   It may have been that he saw part of my largeness that he did not like in the daylight - who knows.  Whatever the case... he has ridden off on his horse into the darkness and I am A-Ok with it!

After a 7 week determined conquest... I was able to get someone to commit to giving me the hug and kiss that I had been promised.  It led to a LOT More and we needed to be hosed off.  What was truly unfortunate was the intentional bruises that were left behind as a result of the hot passion.  I like it a little rough, but not to where it hurts to touch my now black and blue nipples!!!

Someone earlier this week made a quick coffee date with me and then a day later called it off as he was getting more serious with a woman he was dating (they decided all of the sudden)... Not sure I actually believe him.  Super unfortunate as I was hoping to connect with him and his music - he seemed like a good one.  Someone else I chatted with this past week and made a date with for Sunday also messaged me today and told me that he was getting back together with his ex as of this am.  Two in one day!  He I was not as excited about so this was also fine.   Plus- no sooner did this happen than I replaced him with a different date!

I have 4 dates lined up for this weekend.. 2 are more about a physical FWB type thing, one I have no idea and the other seems somewhat normal and subdued.  

I have to say that I am having fun and this is all I want.  For now.. I do miss having someone to go places with me and have fun.  For now I will continue to safely play the field and accumulate those numbers for my numbers game and enjoy the physical connections, first time kisses, passion, dirty talk and ...  but I know there will be a time when I would love to find someone to date more consistently or have a LTR with.  

For now though - I have more bases to run and tackling to do.  Signing off until after the weekend of fun..I am large and in charge! 

Looking for a FWB...

A few days ago I opened up a message on the on line dating site I am on.  Looking fora FWB only.  Sure.. what the heck - let me see what this is all about.  I had a few chats with him after confirming he understood and was "ok" with me being full-figured and wow - people are certainly all out there.

He is all about the boobs - what size - what about your nipples.  He told me his "cock" size (his words) was "7.5 and thick thick circumcised" - Great!  Thanks but I did not ask!  (I can use my peter meter to make sure this is true?)  

I asked him why he was looking for a FWB and he said he was getting over his 3 year relationship with his girlfriend (before that he had been married for many years) and that he did not have time for a relationship.  Interesting.  Not sure I can believe him or anyone really.  He asked for a recent pic to which I sent him a tease picture - one I took that showed a teensy bit of cleavage - beautifully done really - more of a glamour shot my friend did.  He then said he could send me a tease pic to which I quickly replied "NO - I am good. No D pics please!"  (Is there anyone that really likes to look at Dick Pics? Please tell me if so as I cannot even imagine - a side note to this will be a funny story in another blog about a mom I know and D pics).  

The text conversation continued and he kept going about which toys I liked, do I  like his tongue deep in me, favorite place for a man's cum....I cannot even tell you all that was said as it was a lot.  I just kept it up to see how far he would go with the conversation.

He sent me a few pics of him shirtless and may I  just say super buff and handsome. If they were him...

He wanted a full length pic of me too - that is the fun part for me - nope. None. I have none and refused to until I get more weight off.  Being full-figured...hard pass! I did manage to find one where my bottom half melts into the darkness of my black pants...

I have not heard from him since Fri as he was preparing to take his child to college. I know his profile was removed off of the site (either he was on for a month, he changed it, he removed it or was reported- who knows).  I did not expect to hear from him again but the experience and texting was fun. 

I engaged so I could see how far he would go and have great material for my blog. Sext on my friends.. Sext  on!